Archive for June, 2006
I was talking to my neighbor today. She told me that a friend of hers, who has 5 kids already, is pregnant. I’m happy for her, but still feel that it is unfair. It’s especially hard because it seems as though everyone I know is pregnant now. Most of my friends who are pregnant have been trying forever. I am very very excited for them… but, I still feel somewhat jealous. I want to be pregnant too!!!!
Tomorrow is my doctor visit. We will discuss our plan for this next cycle. Maybe then it will be my turn. For now… we wait. I keep up the positive attitude and taking it one day at a time… That’s all I can do right now.
1. Being with my husband.
2. Knowing that someday, soon, I will be a mommy.
3. Acting like a kid.
4. Catching lightning bugs.
5. Watching monkeys play.
6. Getting a love note, “just because”.
7. The smell of a freshly bathed baby.
8. Spending time with my friends.
9. Reading a good book.
10. Making gifts for other people.
12. Playing music.
13. Getting comments on my posts.
14. Taking pictures.
15. America’s Funniest Videos
16. Playing with my dogs.
17. Getting hugs.
18. Snuggling up with my hubby before going to sleep.
19. Reading, out loud, to kids.
20. Knowing that this is my list and I can write as many, or as few, as I like.
So, 1 month until we begin again. I can’t believe it has already been over 2 months since we lost Jalen. I realized this morning that we would have been almost half way through the pregnancy. I guess one positive is, I have to take my National Boards test tomorrow. Since I am not pregnant, I won’t have to get up a million times to pee. There is a silver lining to every cloud…
The plan for this time around is to stay on the Bob Greene plan. I have slacked a little, but have not gained back weight (thank God). In addition, I’m going to try to do some yoga and relaxation exercises daily. So many people suggest to “just relax”. I hate it when they say that. It is so much easier said than done! However, I’m going to work on the relaxation part. Plus, I will try drinking a glass of wine before hand (a recommendation from my doctor). Maybe this will help within the next couple of months. We shall see!
My mother inlaw got a new computer. It has a photo booth that does some really neat things to pictures. Here is one of me. It reminds me of those cards that have distorted animal pictures. This one makes me smile every time I see it. So, I thought I would share the joy.